I QUIT!!! A Plus Size Woman’s Quit Smoking Journey – Entry 1

May 12, 2015 I decided to quit smoking. My husband has been asking, begging me for 4 years now to quit, and I just didn’t know how. That’s the honest truth. Unless you’re a smoker or used to be a smoker, you don’t understand how devastatingly addictive and consuming this drug really is and that smokers just don’t know where to start or how to quit. They do not believe they have the mental fortitude required to successfully quit.

I bought two weeks worth of Stage 1 Patches (21 mg of nicotine dispensed within a 24 hour period) and one week worth of Stage 2 Patches (14 mg).  

For the first 10 days or so, I had one cigarette per day, or one and a half, and just kept telling myself that as long as I didn’t buy a pack, I would be ok. Don’t buy a pack. Don’t buy a pack. Buying a pack signified to me that I would have failed. Then I went a few days straight without having a cigarette at all, and found those days extremely challenging. My every waking thought was of having a cigarette. I would fantasize about buying a pack. Having 25 whole cigarettes at my disposal. Delicious. Sick, but so enticing. But I didn’t give in. I would listen to Allen Carr’s Easy Way to Stop Smoking Audiobook like it was a lifeline. In my car, before going to sleep. Whenever I could without disrupting work or daily duties.


On Saturday May 30 I was at an event and it was hot, hectic, stressful and a woman near me said she was going outside for a cigarette. I muted all voices in my head saying why I shouldn’t, and tuned up the volume on the one voice, albeit the ever-powerful nicotine monster voice telling me why I should and why one was ok. I smoked it. The nasty cig gave me a bit of a head rush, and I gotta say I enjoyed it. But during the long drive home I felt disappointed in myself, weak, and like a failure.

Allen refers to the addiction (and I use the word ‘addiction’ here very intentionally, because it’s not a ‘habit’, as its commonly referred to in order to diminish it’s perilous nature) as a “nicotine monster” in your stomach that needs to be fed. While I thought that having only one per day was a huge improvement over 20-25 per day, all I was doing was drip feeding the nicotine monster and keeping it alive. I thought that by sticking to my mantra of not buying a pack, but still smoking one here and there, that I could still consider myself as a successful quitter. But that’s a lie. I need to starve that fucking monster to death. Allen stresses the fact that ‘there is no such thing as ONE cigarette’. All one cigarette does is make you want another cigarette.

It’s a chain reaction.

I was fooling myself into thinking that having one per day was somehow satisfying, but all I wanted was another in the evening, the next morning, after dinner, while driving on a sunny morning to work. It’s a chain reaction, period.

So I clicked on “I smoked” in my handy stop smoking smart phone app (“Butt Out”), and to my dismay it reset my start date to that very day. So the previous X number of days that I had been 100% smoke free just went up in, uh, smoke. My carbon monoxide, circulation, lung health, and all other health trackers went back to zero progress. While it’s just a few stats on an app, it was devastating to me because it seemed like all those days where I worked so hard to resist were in vain. 


And so it begins again. Later that evening, I showered after my long exhausting day, and settled down with the book and some candles, determined again to fortify my resolve.


I’ve also joined a Facebook group called Quit Smoking Support – there are many of them so you just need to pick one that maintains a positive environment. Another technique that helps me get through cravings is helping and inspiring others. I read their posts and comment, engage in conversations with people who are considering quitting or who have successfully quit for any length of time.

FOOD! Let’s talk about food. As a plus size woman, who admittedly loves her carbs and sweets, the fear that I would want to eat everything in sight was REAL. So how am I dealing with that? Well, I think being AWARE is the most important thing, and stocking the fridge with healthy, natural snacks is essential. And healthy snacks have so many other benefits too. Read more on foods that can help with the quit and provide wonderful benefits too. For me, it’s pineapple – they truly are the fruit of the Gods. 


So this morning, a beautiful sunny Tuesday June 2, I received this gift from one of my customers and fans, Louise Vokins from Renew Life Canada. 


A smoker’s cleanse supplement regimen, designed to “curb cravings, deal with stress, and support the lungs”. Such a lovely, thoughtful and generous gesture on her part. I started right away and I’ll share updates on my progress with this product. 

Side note: Louise is also a representative of YouNique Beauty Products, namely the amazing YouNique Fiber Lashes which I personally use and highly recommend. 

Contact Louise here:

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And for more inspiration, check this out on the amazing things that start happening to your body RIGHT AWAY when you quit smoking. So here’s to 2 days, 16 hours and 27 minutes completely, 100% smoke free and to many, many, many more.

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Moroccan Triple Sec

This outfit is like a shot of liqueur – warm and smooth going down, with an assertive burn, like Triple Sec. That’s how I think of the Skylar Dress by SexyPlus Clothing featured here: a strong brick orange background infused with a bold Moroccan print create the full-bodied color palette for this crisp summer ensemble. 

Sometimes I start with the shoes, or even the necklace, and build an outfit based on that. But in this case, the dress itself was the Pièce De Résistance. 


This zesty strapless number features a unique side HI-LO with a wide, flirty ruffle hem. It’s super flattering light-weight rayon fabric is easy to wear – I swear! It’s not clingy, so it’s a good summer style that doesn’t require shapewear.


The bust has a light ‘blouson’ style with an elastic waist. I like to define my waist so I added a thick navy blue stretchy belt. Here’s the thing – I didn’t like the buckle on the belt (it was so outdated, which was to be expected since it was thrifted) so I clipped an orange hair-flower over it. Voila. Looks all intentional doesn’t it?

SASSY 2 FINAL-8Next, to bring in the blue tones, I chose my Addition Elle blue & black statement necklace and bright blue cobalt pumps from Payless.

Notice that the belt, necklace and shoes are different shades of blue and yet they still compliment the outfit? An important technique to note: when getting dressed, many of us have a tendency to “match” rather than to coordinate. Coordinating forces you to step outside of your comfort zone but yields some pretty striking results that are wonderfully, uniquely you.

Because I’m a romantic and long for the days when women paraded themselves in immaculately coordinated ensembles, I couldn’t resist the tangy mango hat.




I chose a playground to photograph this outfit because I wanted to culminate the essence of fashion and fun, but truth be told, my spiky heels were sinking into the ground so this location made no sense at all, but doesn’t it look good? Seriously, this outfit would have been ideal for a summer BBQ (on more solid ground), an afternoon at an art festival, having a Sex In The City style lunch with friends….The point is that you can take a casual dress and make it ‘haute’ with your accessories, your footwear, and of course your attitude.


I toast our curves and the fashion to celebrate them!

Skylar Dress – custom made and available ONLY at SexyPlus Clothing – here *SPECIAL OFFER* Use code SKYLAR to get 30% off this dress now! 

I am wearing the 0X and I wear a size 16 normally. Sizes 0X to 3X are available. 

Belt – thrifted

Pumps (last year) by Payless – similar options here and here and by Heels.com here

Necklace (last year) by Addition Elle – similar here

Hair flower and hat by Ardene – here and more in store

Photography by Rebecca Northcott Photography

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